The Only Failure

I get afraid

Afraid of incompetency, of disapproval, of

inadequacy

Chains weigh down my hands and mind

Motivation drowns in the sea of my

insecurities

I feel like I’m not alive

I feel like I’m pretending to exist

I feel like I’m dreaming

I feel an odd sense of illusion, of relief and

calm

Like I am sleeping but my eyes are open

The world is my crib, hushing me to bed

So I go to sleep

And that was the only failure.